Am I “I am”?

Some say fulfilment lies in simply being. Here – just being. I just keep forgetting that.

The apparent person assumes that it had to “just be” and that this would relieve it from the search. “Just being” is already the case.

I think Ramana Maharshi also said that you just had to be yourself.

There’s no one who would have to or could do that. It’s not an answer that awaits at the end of the search. You already are the way you are. What else would there be to do?

Well, I could do with feeling a bit more like being on the way to fulfilment.

There is no change that brings fulfilment. It is already wholeness. Timeless, spaceless, apparently flowing, without direction. Ramana may have spoken of this extraordinary ordinariness. There is nothing sacred about it.

Completely ordinary, completely effortless.

Yes, it is effortless. But not because it’s a state that could be maintained in some relaxed manner. It’s not effortless because the realisation is so simple. Effortlessness is the natural reality. Everything is effortlessly itself. There is no path to realisation. There is no real “aha” moment.

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You say that nothing really exists. But apparently, at least you exist, and, from what I see, I myself as well.

Yes, for the feeling of “I am,” it feels as if there is something. The fact that I experience something seems to be proof of this. I sense that I am, so it must be true. I experie