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Signs of Life

“One of the greatest blessings a true believer has is to hear and know the voice of god. It is possible to hear god’s voice today as certainly and clearly as did Abraham and Moses—as clearly as did Samuel and david—as clearly as did Paul, Peter, the apostles, and John on the isle of Patmos!”—david Wilkerson1

It all began with a prayer, at a time when I wasn’t sure if I took prayer seriously. This particular prayer was in response to Psalm 42:1: “As the deer pants for the water brooks, so pants my soul for You, O God.” As I read about David’s thirst for God, I realized that even though I belonged to “the Jesus Christ Club” of Christianity, and believed myself a sold-out disciple because I did all the correct “church” things, and had once read the Bible the whole way through, I did not feel a desperate longing for God.

People often tell testimonies like this: “My life hit rock bottom, and I didn’t know what to do. Then I found Jesus. Now I have all of this joy and peace and success.” Well, it was only sort of like that for the Kallmans.

We had come to a bad place as a family when I was eleven years old. My brothers Ben an