CHAPTER ONE
MY JOURNEY
Not long from now. I will be 63 years old. I grew up as a musician - a drummer. I fell into a life of music, drugs, alcohol, and women, and could not find myself. I loved music, but the drugs, alcohol, and women became terrible false hopes and false prophecies for a life with happiness and true meaning.
In my quest for happiness, I sought help through a lady who performed automatic handwriting. In her process, she contacted the spirits of the dead while holding a pen over writing paper. Supposedly, as different spirits entered and left, they wrote messages to me through her hand. As one spirit left and another entered, the handwriting completely changed. In any session, there would be three to five different spirits and therefore, three to five messages. Only she could read the handwriting. These messages prophesied my future including a move to New York, a marriage, and a spirit, who called himself Funky Guide, who vowed to help me be a better drummer.
Over the next several years, for some reason the prophecies never came true, and I could never sense the assistance of any spirit helping me play. I discontinued my endeavor with automatic handwriting and sought after another avenue.
I then gave a faithful and dedicated attempt to “find myself” through Transcendental Meditation. After paying $125.00 and receiving my mantra and instructions through the guru, I religiously meditated twice a day, twenty minutes each time, in the meditation seated pose chanting my mantra as instructed for an entire year. For some reason, no matter how faithful I was, in-between my meditations I was still the same old person I was before, with no more joy, peace, or purpose in life. Happiness continued to elude me.
The Five Words
While taking a walk on the beach in Panama City, Florida with a friend (Gene Johnson), I shared my desire for something that was real. He said five words that forever changed my life: “What you need is Jesus!”
This now makes it important for us to go back into my childhood…
I grew up in a loving family; however, not in a religious home. We attended Catholic Mass on Christmas and Easter, and they sent me to the Catholic Catechism Class after school on Thursdays. I began to do poorly in school, so they sent me to a Catholic private school for the 7th and 8th grades. This helped me improve my grades; however, whatever I learned about Jesus during the Catechism classes and two years in a private Catholic school did not seem to connect. Now, back to the five words…“What you need is Jesus!”
You see, I knew His name, I knew He died on the cross and rose again, but beyond that, I had no understanding as to who He was. I am not sure if my instruction was poor, or if I just never listened, but I had no comprehension as to who Jesus was. I knew nothing of His life, nothing of the Word of God, or anything that Jesus did.
I did recite the “O