1: Peace in the Wilderness
Unmasked Moment with Yahweh
God can you hear me? Am I on mute? *taps mic* Is this thing on? Just need to let it all out. I don’t understand this at all. I don’t feel complete. Something is definitely missing. What else can I do? I’m asking, believing, confessing, demonstrating, expecting, and forgiving. I have the ABC’s of faith covered, what next? Are my expectations too high? Because each time “it” doesn’t happen, I hit an ugly low. I didn’t even know I could get THIS low.
There’s so much disappointment and hurt. I’m so tired of slapping my neighbor and confessing “God’s gonna do it”. Shoot! I’m not even sure He’s gonna do it. Is this His will? Why would He put this desire in my heart, if He’s never gonna allow it to happen? My heart has been torn into pieces several times and at this point I just want to salvage the pieces I have left. Heal me Lord. It’s been too much to bear alone. This journey seems so uncertain.
Carrying this hurt around is too much for any one. I’m still standing, still holding on, still praying, still changing. Nothing’s ever been so hard. Seemingly holding it together isn’t cutting it anymore. My pieces are falling apart slowly. Can You put me back together again?
God I just want to lay down my will for Your will. If You never see fit for that thing to come to pass, You are still Holy and perfect in ALL of Your ways. I ask that You take my will and burn it. Not my will, but Your will be done in my life Lord. I don’t want anything that You don’t want me to have. All the selfish desires and even those that don’t line up with Your perfect will in my life; take them out of my heart. Burn them out of my mind. Empty me of all my desires Lord. Fill me up with only the things You want inside of me. You make no mistakes and You know exactly what I can and cannot handle.
It is Well with My Soul
A Shunammite woman longed for a son gravely. The prophet Elisha spoke into her life and told her she would have a son next year. Indeed, what he’d spoken had come to pass. Much time passed and the boy grew. One day he didn’t feel well and died. She told Gehazi “It is well” although her son was dead. The child she’d always desired to have was gone and clearly her soul was distressed. But in the midst of it all she confessed, “It is well.” Her actions were driven by her faith. At one point in her life having a child come from her womb seemed nearly impossible. And here comes the prophet Elisha making what was impossible for so long, possible.
Her faith takes her so far that she doesn’t even tell anyone her son
