Prologue
“Does this train stop at Farmingdale?”
Funny how the sound of a voice can trigger reflections, a startled Roger Armsworth Todd thinks to himself... and in this case, twinges deep within his loins as well.
He looks up and stares incredulously while a polite fellow passenger answers affirmatively. The woman steps aboard. Roger ducks his head.
Though he has never seen the woman, she has most certainly seen him. More than seen him really. She examined, inspected and palpated his entire naked form. Conflicting thoughts overwhelm as her voice causes memories to cascade. He feels the anger of having been violated. He feels an odd poignancy. He senses rapture. He feels the need to learn more. Something calls for revenge but something inside also suggests congeniality, a need to get closer to her. Deep within he’d like to know her better. But for what purpose?
He knows what a punished dog feels like... there is an instinct to strike in retaliation... there is a sense of acceptance for being deservedly rebuked by a loving owner.
The woman steps past Roger’s seat. He looks down to hide his face. She does not notice him.
Roger spies white shoes and the hem of a white cotton skirt beneath her coat.
A nurse! Yes, it is she!
Uniformed woman, naked male... how much time... how many times... together without ever seeing her face or knowing her full name. Nurse Rachel, she suggested she be called. Her moniker mentally morphed to Nurse Ratched... and Roger doubts it was even her real first name.
Roger’s stop is nearby Woodside, Queens. Farmingdale is a comparatively long way out on Long Island. Should he stay on the train and seek more?
‘More what?’ he inquires of himself.
He’ll need to pay additional fare. Plus he will be in violation of the terms of his release. Worth the money and the risk?
The train leaves Penn Station in 10 minutes. Woodside is an early stop. Roger has moments to make a decision. Meanwhile he chances, turning his head and glancing back. Though the woman looks down into her purse for her train ticket, he can note the handsome features. Auburn hair, neatly wrapped atop her head, receptive to the cap which would complete her nurse’s ensemble. Makeup neat and not overly done. She is broad shouldered and tall, quite obvious even while she sits. Her image does not precisely match what he imagined during all those times of lying blindfolded and naked before her... beneath her? But it is close, and he is strangely disappointed that she is pretty. He wished her to be a brute, ugly in appearance to match her strict demeanor.
But she is not!
Is he in love? Was he in love during the many stressful interludes with her?
What is this strange attraction?
The psychologist warned of the potential when the experimental program began. A possible corollary of the ‘Stockholm syndrome’, so some speculated.
And now he sits contemplating a gross infraction of the rules... so he can be with her one more time. Curious behavior.
He mind flashes to three years before...
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Visit Number One – The Beginning
“The terms of your early release require that you participate in this experimental program. It is voluntary. You may return to Sing Sing Correctional Facility any time. Do you understand that, Mr. Todd?”
There comes a nod. The woman returns the nod without emotion.
“Good. Be on time. Upon arrival, you will go to the assigned examination room. Close the door behind you. Remove your clothing then follow instructions precisely. Be obedient. Answer all questions promptly and honestly. Just as you can volunteer to return to incarceration,
